You know when you meet someone for the first time and then after they leave you feel all jittery and then you look in the mirror and check your teeth…. and you have food in them, and not just a small piece but like a big one? That feeling where you just want to kick yourself.
I am a very talented person and sometimes in not the best areas; I can’t keep my mouth shut. I just don’t stop talking. I have gotten better, don’t get me wrong, but I’m still pretty bad. Everytime I say too much I get that same feeling as if I had something in my teeth and didn’t realize. Except having something in your teeth is something people don’t make that big of a deal about, whereas saying something you probably shouldn’t have could cause a bit more issues. As I said… I am just really very talented. These moment happen so often that I can’t even remember one because there is just too many.
Anyway, back to meeting that person and kicking yourself because you should have not said that, or done that, or should have said that but didn’t, the possibilities are endless.
The feeling that I want to harp on though, is when you have that kicking feeling and then they still come back it’s like: 😀 (the biggest smile in the world!) . Especially if you liked the person. It also shows you something about that other person: that they realize it could have been you on nerves, you not thinking straight, you making a mistake, and to have someone in your life from the first moment you meet understand that you make mistakes but that doesn’t make you, you, is a real blessing.
You hear a lot of stories about people that do something unexpected on their first date and the other person is just like “this is not for me,” but doesn’t even give them a chance to explain. People do not care anymore that it was an accident, they just care about themselves. Often you will find people not even confronting the situation. I’m just like; helllooooooo, just ask?! Legit, what is there to lose? It is awkward enough with the big elephant in the room, why on earth won’t you just confront it? It WILL defuse the situation. Trust me, I know.
My better half always lets me bring up that ‘awkward comment’ I made but if I don’t and he thinks I’d do it again without realizing, he’ll let me know, just as he would let me know that I have food stuck in my teeth. It is more for me than him, and that is the point in your relationship where you realize you have someone special.
When your mother pinched you under the table while you were talking it was because you were embarrassing her, when he gives you the eyeballs or changes the conversation real quick so that no one can harp on what you just said, you know it is because he is stopping you from embarrassing yourself.